I haven't posted much this month. It's really come down to health issues. My shoulder has been bothering me for years but has gotten really bad in the last few months. I finally had surgery last week. What does all of this have to do with anything?
Sometimes the hobby hurts. Physically hurts. For the last month, and especially, the last week, almost all hobby activity has been painful to perform. I can game, which may be part of why I'm so excited about X-Wing right now. I can't hold a brush, or a file. I can't hold two little pieces of plastic together while the glue sets. Most of the hobby is outside my reach, both figuratively and literally.
I spent a couple of days staring forlornly at the models on my desk. There's so much to do and I'm not accomplishing any of it. Then I started to consider how I would adjust if my temporary disability were permanent. What could I do to allow me to paint and assemble models? How would my collecting change if everything became harder? This was purely an exercise in "what if" since I am expecting to recover fully. It was really something to keep my mind occupied while I sat here and drooled on myself.
One result of all of this thought is a new found appreciation for all that I take for granted. It's good to have things taken away from us sometimes; it helps us realize what we have and what we value. The prospect of re-gaining full use of my right arm is something that fills me with great pleasure, above and beyond the hope of living without pain. I definitely find that I am a person who wants what they can't have. I'm surprised at the sense of loss I feel right now.
I am obsessive about miniatures and gaming. I think about them way more than I should. They have helped to keep me sane through many military deployments. I need to keep my brain actively engaged. I haven't watched TV in years and have a hard time sitting through a movie. Miniatures are the balm that soothes the savage beast, so to speak.
I'm going to wrap it up here, both because I'm sure this is rambling (stupid pain killers) and because typing hurts too. But I do have a question. What disabilities do you guys suffer from and how do you compensate? It could be as simple as failing eyesight or as difficult as a certain sculptor's missing hand. I'd be fascinated to hear all about it. Or are we all insufferably healthy?